A heavy heart, not because I need to close it, it always had the potential to be impermanent but because I have upset and hurt people I never intended to.
I have been naive in thinking that my tongue in cheek attitude to certain areas of my writing and comments would be taken in the way they were meant. Some of the alias I assigned people have caused offence and that was NEVER my intention. Why would it be? I've landed at a brilliant station with a good group of people, yes there will always be personality clashes but I have liked to think I generally get on with most.
I have now changed this dynamic. I have lost the trust of some. I will need to work hard to get that trust back and I hope this will act as the first step towards that.
Those on station who I know will inevitably read this, I would like you to approach me if I have upset you so I can apologise in person. I owe people that much at least. As I continue to state, upset and offence were never my intentions in any of this.
So I will make the blog public one last time for one last week. On Easter Monday the blog and all its content will be removed.
To those readers who have been with me from the start and been so encouraging and supportive throughout, thank you. I appreciate all you had to say and all you have taught me.
And before I leave I will fill you in on some of my progress.
In August I completed the initial paramedic training course at Barony castle. The 6 week course was intense but it was great group of people and I had a lot of fun. I then completed my first 2 weeks of clinical placement before Christmas and then the final part in February. So as I type I am compiling the necessary paperwork to send to the HPC and become a registered paramedic.
So it also brings a nice conclusion to Ambulance Nut - Learning the Ropes. I still have an awful lot to learn as I appear to be learning the hard way. I hope to continue to improve and learn and to enjoy the job I have found I love.
And so Louise is disappearing and, as I've said, I hope by putting this to rest I can go some way to building bridges I have so spectacularly burnt.
I started a second blog, not anonymous or under an alias, as me. It simply chronicles my time in the Scottish wilderness, with friends and family. As I have eluded before the mountains are my refuge and I shall be finding some peace and adventure in them again very soon. If this is your thing, feel free to join me there.
So in one week time this chapter will close.
Over and Out
Ambulance Nut xx